efek nonton drama :)

Its really scared for me,
I don't want if my husb will forget me or I will forget him
But just one thing will be make it be happy
Just a love
Without that, I can get the great husb ever

And now, its not my time to looking for a husb, but I hope someday when I need to get married, I just want a man, who really love me so much, and not for playing me
And also he gets a good job, so when I can to work because I have some reason, he can give our fams to eat something

And I will proud to him and my parent too 

Where are you now, my future ??
I hope you will come not late, and I will feel happy soon

I feel crazy when I am 19th now, I don't feel how someone give a love to me, they are just make me sad now, no one really love me more with no reason
They just look me because my parent and my education

But one of them I give my love to him, but he can't to get my love, so he just playing around me, and really make my heart sick and hurt
He doesn't know how I am now, I am hurt you know!!
Now, I just want a spirit form you, but I never get it. Its just a dream for me, because you now, just looking for another girl in your place. And I think you just don't have a love in your heart

But, I want to hate you, but I can't..
You are my friend , my brother now,
I can't be dissapear form you ever.

Its sad , but I must stand and I face that reality 
FightinggggG for me,, amiin